My 1st and AWESOME Boat Shoes

I have been looking for those shoes like for ages...and finally I found them and I love them...haha...for more than one reason ;)

Prayer...

YOU ARE UNIQUELY ORIGINAL!

Love this picture...it has soo much wisdom to it...



Often in life we tend to be very uncertain of our abilities, worth and self-esteem. We tend to see ourselves less useful as other do or perhaps not useful at all. We tend to think we are not beautiful at all and that is why we are not loved as much as others are. We tend to forget our uniqueness and often compare ourselves to others in every single matter.

But we must realize or remind ourselves of this fact: WE ARE UNIQUELY ORIGINAL! We are not a copy but an ORIGINAL!
God didn't create one type of a woman and got lazy and copied us...but He took all time that was needed and made us unique...VERY unique - UNIQUELY ORIGINAL!

Loosing this fact out of sight we tend to compare ourselves to others, lower our self-esteem and harbor sad feelings.

I find myself guilty of this..I tend to compare myself to others. I tend to wanting to be like others but that is simply impossible. I am perfectly made by God and He took His time to create me...He didn't just say: "Well, I'm tired today...I'll make her a copy of someone" - NO...instead He said: "That's my girl...I will make her special and uniquely original...she will be ONE in a kind"

What a loving God I serve! He loved me so much to give me my very own unique talents, abilities, even weaknessness, strengths, personality, attitude and character-traits.

Is it not wonderful to say: I am uniquely original! No one on this planet earth was like me, is like me and will be like me?

I pray that God reminds me daily of my unique originality and so does you too...

Love yourself...don't compare yourself to the models out there that have nothing than empty vessels, that comform themselves to the world with loosing their uniqueness...stop trying to be like others...stop trying to copy other's habits...sure sometimes it's good to strive for the humbleness of someone else...but don't think for a second it will be like that person...it will be uniquely different....
Enjoy your uniqueness and your differences...Enjoy the fact:

YOU ARE UNIQUELY ORIGINAL!

I'm sorry...

Saying SORRY seems to be the hardest word yet it can heal so much and mend that which has been broken and hurt...

Say SORRY...even if you feel like you are not at fault...you don't even have a clue how much it did hurt the other person...

Listen to the song and learn the lesson behind it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GvbQzRAi4wM

Love and humble yourself and say: "I'm sorry" <3<3

Beauty...

Beauty...what is it?
Really...beauty cannot be defined...what is beautiful to me is to someone else normal or even ugly...beauty is indeed only in the eyes of the beholder...

I think it's sad that this world tries with all force to conform beauty to a specific set of body measures, weight,etc.
I am totally for it to loose weight if you don't feel well with your weight but not to be a size0...that is absolutely insane...

Even the bible says in Proverbs 31:30: Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised... ....that beauty is vain...beauty is a wonderful thing but NOT the uttermost thing...
I myself am guilty of the mindset of wanting to be as thin as all those models that have millions on their bank account and friends everywhere....

But why is beauty that important? Why do we need to try to convince a guy of ourselves primarily of our outward beauty? Should someone not love us because of who we are which is defined by our character or just bc. we are nice to look at...

That brings me to the statement: Never judge a book by it's cover...

A girl/guy might be outwardly hot and you can't take off your eyes of her/him...but what is inside of that person?
Does that person have a great personality....loving kind character and above all GODLY EXAMPLE?!!

We often fall back into the worldly mindset: I need to be thin, hot and sexy dressed so people like me but is that really what we should look after?

I can't remember where I read this but Megan Fox herself said: She is actually very shy but her outward appearance give her the courage to go before media....
See....outward beauty doesn't make you everything...perfectly....it DOES count what is inside of you!!

Girls, I encourage you all to stay true to yourself and feel beautiful even with 10kg more on your weight than is "normal" for this world.

GOD made every person beautiful...just in different shapes and styles....that doesn't mean you are not beautiful...encourage yourself and be happy how God made you...you don't need 10 tons of make-up to try to fix you to a hot and sexy girl...make-up only says: I am not satisfied how God made me...so I need to correct God's "mistake"...

Be yourself...be proud of who you are and love yourself....if you do; even faking it....people will see that glow in you and there will be definitely a guy that will fall for you...not only your outwardly but most of all YOU!!!

Trust and let go a little...

I have found to realize that age do not hinder people to control you...

Even at the age of 20 parents can't stop seeing their kids as little babies they need to control constantly...
That is not a problem but with time, if that occurs over and over again it brings mistrust and distance...

I know the love between parents and kids is uniquely made and nothing really can break it(except abuse or other)...but if control is ever present in that relationship it bring forth mistrust, anger and distance...

Parents need to let their kids feel they trust them to achieve things on their own in life...especially at the age of 20....I don't mean crazy life-threatening things but at least the simple one's like making a call at the doctor!!!....or decisions on how to manage their own life...

If you don't let kids have a little control, experience life on their own...then you are controlling them...at first it will be appreciated but with time it will start to grow into mistrust....out of mistrust distance will have it's way....

Parents I'm not saying you should let your kids loose but give them the feeling they are perfectly made and they can handle things on their own with 20!!! ;)

Tossed and forgotten...unloved and unwanted...

Seems like my world is crashing into pieces right now...not only is everyone picking on me to change myself because I have an awful character...but it seems like that is not enough...I really can cope with that but now it seems like I can't talk to anyone anymore...because whatever I say is hold against me...Whatever I let out of heart people take against me to judge me and make me look like a miserable person...
Seems like showing me my failures is not enough...people need to make sure they break my heart and violate my trust...I have my issues with trusting people and now the people I thought I could trust with my life are the ones that break it over and over again...it hurts to see the ones you think you let into your hearts to trust are the ones that just take your heart and crush it into pieces...they don't care I trusted them because I felt hopeless but now...what else to say...

The storm is tossing and throwing me from here to then...me in it and no rescue in sight or reach...hopeless and left behind...tossed and forgotten...unloved and unwanted....

Sometimes "Silence & Loneliness" is the best solution...

There are days where I just feel like no one in this whole wide world understands me...
I hate those days when I wake up with the wrong foot and get yelled at EVERY minute for unnecessary reasons...

Sometimes I just feel like crying and screaming it all out but often I feel like silence and loneliness is the best solution...
Yet it hurts and it feels like you are being abandoned but at least you don't have to cope with the failures that others put right before your face making sure they are constantly viewable for you...making sure to see what miserable and awful person you are...making sure you see your many weaknesses and failures...

Often I feel like an orphan stranded somewhere with no love, no help, no understanding, no compassion, no sympathy...
Like a ship that has been abandoned to crash and sink to the ocean's ground with no chance of someone reaching out for help...

Today is such day...I just want to be still and know there is a God that loves me...

Even when I don't feel any love coming from anyone I can stand assured there is a God that loves me unconditionally!

That is the time where I need silence and lonliness to be as close as possible to HIM to not loose all hope...but to embrace the sweetness of His presence and His love that goes deeper than anything and that's where silence makes it soo much easier...

SILENCE and LONLINESS....

The kids of our generation are exposed to way too much...

I was shocked today...I saw a video that was posted on FB...It showed 2 kids - a girl and a boy - lustfully dancing...the girl was dancing around the boy's "manhood" very sensual and sexually stirring...

I was SHOCKED!

How can the children of our generation get so out of hand? I mean those kids were not older than 12 and they are doing that in all openness where adults do it in all privacy and marriage; if at all!!

How can the parents of those kids know/notice that behavior in such young age and not do something against it?!
How could someone be so proud and post this on the internet?!

In the video you could also see adults just laughing and other kids gathering around the dancing "couple" and cheering.
I couldn't believe my eyes...how can adults, knowing this is adult behavior for marriage, neglect the fact they are abusing the children mentally?! How can we let go of our childhood so easily, thinking doing such kind of things are not harmful?!

It is no wonder to me that more and more girls are being raped...just look at the girls of this day...11-14 year old girls dress like...so sorry for my word use...whores and then the parents cry and call for police and all that jazz when they hear their girl/s has/have been raped...More and more kids have sexual encounters with already 13-14 years...They are still babies, so to say and they just loose their virginity in an age where their good judgement is not even at 10%

Call me old fashioned, call me a backwoods-woman or give me other names but I believe in keeping the childhood at the childhood and the adult hood at adulthood...I believe in keeping the virginity till marriage and not having Premarital sex!!!

I believe with all my heart that if you have any sexual encounters before marriage you have not only sinned against God but you have also sinned GREATLY against yourself!!!

Sexual encounters do NOT exclude lustful dancing around a boy's "manhood" or petting, masturbating and watching pornography or kissing!
Sure, if you are an adult and you plan to marry someone I understand if you kiss...but still I would be careful with that...bc. God forbid...what if he or she is not the right one?! I want to go into marriage knowing:
- My husband/wife is the first and last guy/girl I ever kissed in my whole life!!!
- My husband/wife is the one that I gave the gift of purity and virginity!!

Sure I understand some have made that horrible mistake of giving away their virginity to someone but you can find forgiveness in the eyes of God!! Make a covenant with God to keep yourself clean till the day you wed yourself forever to your husband/wife!

I believe in purity and keeping it that way till marriage!!

It's a shame how the children of our generation loose their innocence so early. They can't even enjoy being kids...they are exposed to sex, drugs, lust and immorality so early it's no wonder our generation is dying the sinful death so quickly.

God have mercy on this generation....Looking at all the signs in this world of the end time we should make sure, if you have kids to keep them from all those sinful things, the lust, sex, drugs, etc.
Kids should have the opportunity to be kids and not deal with what adults struggle with their life...
Kids should have the opportunity to say, when they stand at the altar seconds to be wed to someone for their life...I have been a child in childhood and I can proudly stand before God and the church: I am pure and I have kept myself for him/her!!!

Proverbs 31

Proverbs 31:10-31(KJV):
10 Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies.
11 The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil.
12 She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life.
13 She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands.
14 She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar.
15 She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens.
16 She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard.
17 She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms.
18 She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night.
19 She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff.
20 She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy.
21 She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet.
22 She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple.
23 Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land.
24 She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.
25 Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come.
26 She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.
27 She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness.
28 Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her.
29 Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all.
30 Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised.
31 Give her of the fruit of her hands; and let her own works praise her in the gates.

Couple of days Proverbs 31 has been on my heart...I have decided to make sure to go over that chapter & analyze every verse...PLEASE NOTE THIS IS MY FOR THIS GENERATION ADAPTED VERSION OF PROVERBS 31:10-31:

- She is pure, noble, chaste and virginal.
- She is precious and priceless. Her worth cannot be measured with any ruby in this universe.
- She is trusted by her loving husband. He finds great pleasure in having her and he knows how valuable she is to him.
- She has only good intentions for him and she does not seek any kind of evil for him all the days of her life.
- She is not lazy but a hardworking woman who works with all of her strength.
- She is not rasist but multicultural minded.
- She is not work-shy but knows her responsibilities and her neccessity of accomplishing them.
- She is compassionate.
- She is caring and loving.
- She is humble and does not think too highly of herself.
- She has great judgment.
- She uses her own hands to build things.
- She knows her strengths and uses them.
- She stays up late to make sure what she does is fruitful.
- She is available 24/7.
- She never neglects her duties of a woman.
- She makes sure that the needs of her family is met.
- She is a planner and prepares for each season, event,etc. in time.
- She is gifted in design and has a great, stylish yet godly and modest sense of fashion.
- She is a compliment and blessing to her husband and family.
- Her husband is well known in their enviroment of living. He has great leadership skills and is considered wise.
- She knows how to make and repair things.
- She has an open and caring heart for the people in need and provides for them.
- She is known by her strength and honor and she can rejoice in her reputation.
- She speaks wisdom and she has a kind tongue.
- She knows when to correct and when to exhort yet she does that all in a loving, caring and kind way.
- She is concerned about her duties in her household and is not of a lazy nature.
- Her children love and respect her and so does her husband because he can’t stop praising her.
- Although she has charm and is beautiful yet her greatest value is her love for God.



Every woman that strives to be Christ-like should strive to possess the attributes and characteristics mentioned in Proverbs 31:10-31. Yet above all she must be known for her love for God. Her love for God must stand out. Not her outward beauty, her charm or her reputation but her love of God must be INSPIRATION :D <3<3<3

This is a post primarely for girls but guys if you read this: Look for a woman that has this characteristics. She does not have to be outwardly beautiful to be loved but her love for God matters.

If you are looking for a woman she should be so lost in God that you need to find HIM in order to find her!!! ;) <3

Guys, don't choose a girl because she has model measures or is very attractive to look at...sure everyone wants a hot girl but that is not important as her love and strength in Christ. If she is outwardly hot and inwardly she is faking and her relationship with Christ has nothing inspirational to you, here is my advice: Drop her like she's hot!! A woman that fears the Lord is to praised, loved and seeked after!!

To every girl reading this: I know some might be stronger or weaker in the above mentioned attributes but strive for them. But don't worry if your love for God stands out HE will shape you to the person HE wants you to be. He will make you a loving, compassionate and above all attractive godly and modest woman and you will find your man of dreams. <3<3<3

Charisma-BOOST

Every week I get an email from a man called Christian Sander...He wrote self-helping books for women who just can't understand men and their uniquesness and want to understand our opposite sex.

The last email he wrote me was about Charisma.

What is Charisma?
According to Wikipedia this is Charisma:
1) compelling attractiveness or charm that can inspire devotion in others
2) a divinely conferred power or talent.

Charisma is very important...Everyone has Charisma...wether it be postive or negative, too much or too little...seen and noticed or unseen and unnoticed...

The email said Charisma is how people see us but 90% of it depends on how we feel.

I soo loved this email because it did encourage me to see myself differently...He said:

A little advice for your charisma:

YOU HAVE TO ACT AS IF!!!

That is soo true. Often in life we let ourselves down from life and problems, issues and worries...we walk on the streets and our face says it all, our shoulders are low or back curled...We show others even unintensionally: We are down...but the other person does not know what horrible day you might have had...they might think...Hmmm...that person is just that way and has no charisma...
Here comes in the advice Christian Sander gave: YOU HAVE TO ACT AS IF....

Act as if you are the happiest girl/guy on earth and you will show that to everyone and believe it or not: You will feel like that!
To be happy is a choice! You can choose to be happy or not. You can choose after a long and stressful day to leave your worries behind and just encourage yourself to be happy and the whole wide world will see it!

I am even talking to myself...Often if I am down, sad or not happy I let myself go and drown in my unhappiness. This is wrong...with God on our side HE is HAPPINESS enough...HE IS enough to be thankful and happy again no matter what the world has offered us!!!

Try today, if you feel unhappy and sad, to act as if you are happy! You will see your worries will slowly vanish and you will start being happy.

The psychologist and philosopher William James(1842-1910) said it already over 100 years ago:

If you want a characteristic in you, then you have to act as if you aready had it!

Act happy as if you are indeed happy!
Act as if you the most beautiful girl as if you were told a billion times you are!!

FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT!!!

Love...

What is Love?
According to Wikipedia Love is: an emotion of strong affection and personal attachment

I am more than convinced that Love is one of the most awesome emotions that someone can feel. To love and being loved is what EVERYONE is looking for. Someone that loves you for your abilties, talents and yet weeknesses. Someone that completes you.

I define Love as someone that loves and adores me for who I am, both my strengths and weekenesses and that completes me. He completes me in a way that when I hate spiders he is there to be my knight in bright shining armour to rescue from my misery...hahahaha...ain't that true ladies?! :D
Someone that if I cry knows to hold me tight and just give me the feeling of being there...someone that if I don't feel good at all he makes me smile...someone that if I feel so bad about myself(ladies, you know what I mean-those aweful bad hair/body days ^^) gives me the feeling I am the most beautiful woman in the whole wide world....

Love also means to me to be there for my man...to love him no matter what...to be there in his weekeness(as if he had any!! <3), be there to take good care of him and to give him my undivided attention, care and love. To be there to be a shoulder he can lean on, a hand that is there to hold when he's sick in bed and he needs someone to take care of him...a person available 24/7 to his needs and and a great wife and mother to our kids...

This is one of the most amazing vows I have ever heard....Grey's anatomy...season final from Dr. Preston Burke:
I could promise to hold you, and to cherish you, I could promise to be there in sickness and in health, I could say till death do us part but I won't. Those vows are for optimistic couples, the ones full of hope and I do not stand here on my wedding day optimistic or full of hope. I am not optimistic I am not hopeful, I am sure. I am steady, and I know that I am a heart man. I take them apart and put them back together, I hold them in my hands. I am a heart man. So this I am sure, you are my partner my lover my very best friend. My heart, my heart beats for you and on this day. The day of our wedding I promise you this. I promise you to lay my heart in the palm of your hands. I promise you me.
Just love it <3<3<3

Being in love is sooo amazing....You must know I don't fall in love very easily...I don't love someone right away...Love is for me a continued growth from day to day...A affection that grows stronger day by day...
Therefore I am never to fast to tell even myself I love someone...Sure I do tell people that are special in my life I love them...but I have never told someone "I LOVE YOU"....in fact I have never been in love...Sure, there have been guys that I liked bc. of my crazy teen hormones blurring my good judgment...but now...20 years after birth I feel like I am about to fall deeply in love for someone....He is a very unique and special person...He indeed completes me...He has so many strengths and I can't find to see weaknesses...He is tender and compassionate...loving and sensitive...through and through a strong man yet in a special and sweet and very manly way emotional...I love man that are NOT afraid to show emotions....He loves kids and is very great with them...He is a great listener and he is not fast in actions...He doesn't reacts immediately but takes his time to use his GREAT skills to manage situations...He is sure a controller of his environments and he doesn't let his environment control him...He knows when to be strict and mature and when to just let loose and have fun...He has such a wonderful kind of way...
What first impressed me about him is that he is sooo into ministry...He does everything for Christ...sacrifices so much and yet does not expect anything...but is thankful for each moment...
He has a GREAT sense of fashion <3<3<3<3 but really that is not the very first thing that impressed me the MOST of him...his maturity yet youthfulness and playfulness and Christianity inspires me truly....hahaha...He is indeed inspiration to me :D ...like no one has ever been for me...He does thinks where I just stand amazed...and makes me encourage myself to reach higher levels...
Thank you for being Inspiration :D <3<3<3

Just because you have a talent does NOT make you talented...

Friends of mine made a statement that made me think really hard..Some said: Well, now we can save the CD(Our Youth Group is doing one right now)....The statement at itself is not wrong but the thought behind, to my opinion, is...

Therefore I said in my headline: Just because you have a talent does NOT make you talented!!

Not only as Christian do we have to be so much more careful about how we view our abilities and talents.
We must above all know: It is NOT our effort but it is GOD's!!!!!

Without Him giving us our talent/s we would not have it/them. We have talents right from birth and we develop them or we later realize we have a hidden talent and work toward perfection of it... but having them does not automatically make us talented so also does being a Christian automatically make us Christians! There are 1000 kinds of Christians...they call themself Christians but really that does not make them Christians....

Same with our talents...We must be careful to not let pride creep into our hearts and minds to control us and tricking us into the mindset that "I have this talent...I am the one!!!"...into this "I"-Habit...being egoistic, selfish and prideful...
We MUST give GOD the glory for what HE has given to us....sure God gave them to us and it's our effort to develop them but that does not give us the permission to be prideful and boastful about what we have...

Thinking about with what talents God blessed me I am simply overwhelmed that God trusted me with so much. He trusted me with musical talents, compassion, love, thoughtfulness and even leadership values and so many more...
A person in my life :D <3<3<3....very dear and special to me...said: God has obviously blessed you leading worship, singing, playing the piano, shopping, baysitting, teaching kids ....etc and who knows what else? But you will never know what other God given talents and abilities you may possess unless you give it your best shot.

I challenge everyone that are ashamed and insecure about their talents to give it their best shot!!! ;)

It's amazing what talents God gave to me but in all of them GOD STILL GETS THE GLORY...wihtout HIM none of those and so many more would be entrusted into my care...

Take a look at Acts 12:20-23...we see the story of Herod..his talent was obvious - He was very talented in his way of speaking...very eloquent...yet despite of that he did not give God the glory and what happended? He was smotten, eaten by worms and died...

Never cease to give God the glory for your talents...you own and develop them but God is the origin of them!!!

To GOD be the GLORY!!!